Wednesday, August 4, 2010

she is my sister

kakak sy tgh perasan. dia pakai baju sy nih tao

Her name is nazatul hawa bt abdul ghani. Age? About 26. Status.. She already married to zulkifli zamzamin n has son named hafiy zayyan. Cute! I mean her son. Not me! Even my sis. Apetah lagi abg Jo. Ye lah.. I admit my sis is quite pretty.

Of cause I love her. Very much. And I know she love me too. Very much jugak. Dia slalu jadi tempat I lepaskan my tempered. Ya.. I nih hot temper sikit even ramai yang xtaw. Sbb dengan org laen I lebih sabar, n understanding. Caring lagi. Ups! I’m x going to story about me. But about her. Her life. Sumthing interesting about her.

When both of us were young.. the age distance pon juz only about 3 yrs, she jealous at me. Huhh? I taught I yg perlu jeles dengan dia. Sbb dia slalu kena ngorat.. i? hahh.. org pndang sebelah mata pon xnak. She jealous at me coz I always got what I want. Ape yang I nak suma abah bg. Suka! But not her. Sebab dia manja mungkin… so semua kena control. Not like me. ketegaQ. Yup! That word suit 4 me. Sgt!
She’s the manja one. Koman sepana kalau ikot bahasa abang i. so becoz of her koman sepana, wherever she want to go… she never meet my abah permission. Lawatan smbil belajar, lawatan yang xpayah belajar.. camping? Everything. My abah always says, NO!. xpernah yes! Serious! Can ask her if u don’t believe me. My late abah too cared about her. Dia lembik. I mean dr segi kesihatan. But my sis telah salah anggap semua tuh. Her mind and attitude also have been controlled with this. The impact? dia malas belaja. Belaja pon cukup syarat je. Sebab dia taw… kalau 1 fine day dia bejaya masuk U for example, abah of coz x bagi punya. I know that abah love her so very much smpai kalau boleh, xmo duk jauh2. Hmm, abah. Missed him so much like no words can describe it. So, level of education of my sis is spm.

When it comes to marriage, her life become more complicated. Pecaya atau x, dia xder boyfren. scandal yang xberapa nk scandal tuh ada la. time yang complicated tuh, she have 4 choice! Her scandal, brother’s fren, dikenen2kn sdara, and kawan masa kecik dia. Tp yang betul2 serius masa tu, juz kwan pada abg & yg dikenenkan sdara. She was 24 years old at dat time. For me that’s the best age to get married. She told me that if can, she want to reject both of them. Marry without love maybe not in her mind at all. But my mak said “hah.. satgi hang dok tolak semua org, pastuh xdak sapa masuk minang dah, padan muka hg. Tua lagu tu ja”
She scared. Ada benar jugak kata mak tu. She had done solat istikharah. N lastly my brother’s frens become her choice. The reason she not chooses the one yg dkenen2kan sedara even though that guy was the educated one coz of she doesn’t need a man who like to use “aku” scra tiba2 bla naek angin. She dun want a guy yang baru kenal xsmpai sebulan 2 dah pndai cakap pasal sex behavior. Ape kes? And actually.. the actual story is more n more complicated. But too long to story. Xpayah la!

So now, she’s happy with her new life. New x new sgt la. dah 2 thn  lebih. Dia bunting pelamin!
I love her sbb dia sgt memahami adik dia yg sorg nih. Kalo I marah dia, dia wat dunno je. Lagi 1, I paling suka shopping dgn dia sbb boleh mengada all over the time. I melenggang, n dia bawak semua brg. Brg I pon. Ok! I bwk jugak sikit. Kalau sepuluh plastic tuh.. possibility I nak bwk… maximum 3 plastic la. jahat kan i? buli dia. Tp dia ok je.. I pon ok la.. sbb dok mengada sgt la, bila shopping sensorg or dgn kwn n byk brg pulak beli… I rasa nk tinggal jew stgh brg kalo buleh. Or… of coz at dat time I remember her! Ada faedah jugak ape??
hafiy zayyan. comel budak nih. sgt hyperactive.


Sunday, August 1, 2010

sebuah kematian

rasa besalah!
saya benci rasa mcm ni...
now already 4.33am.
i can't sleep.
xngntok.
ari kames lepas syazana bg sy terter dia. seekor hamster yg sgt comel.
x really sihat sbb sy tgk bulu kat belakang dia x really ok. i dunno y.
syazana kta... terter dia slalu maen mlm..
tp bila dgn sy... dia xmaen pon. start mlm kames ag.
tp mlm jumaat dia maen kejap. dlm 1/2 jam. xsampai rasanya.
kemarin.. sabtu. dia xmaen jugak. dia bgn mkn kejap n byk temenung je.
tgh mkn pon dia temenung.
cara dia berak pon dah laen.
cair. xmcm slalu..
dlm pkol 2 td sy tgk dia dlm banglo dia. senyap je. bdn dia maseh gerak2. sy xkaco la.
td dlm 420 sy tgk lagi. dia dlm banglo tu lagi.. sy tgk je dia. bile dia nk kuar?
sy pelik.
badan dia xgerak. mcm dah xder denyutan nadi je...
sy bukak pintu, then sy usik dia dgn jari. xmcm slalu. dia xbg ape2 respon.
sy cuak!
sy cuit dia lagi...
xder respon jugak....
sy tolak dia sikit.
astaghfirullahalazim...
innalillah...
dia dah xder...
memang dia dah xder....
saya sedih.
sy taw dia bukan pet saya.
tp sy syg dia...
mesti syazana sedih..
salah saya ke?
sy x kaco dia sgt pon...
sy bg dia mkn je ari2.
ye... sy xbg la mandi. sy xreti.
sy x basuh la sangkar dia sbb sy xder keprluan laen.

sy clap bg mkn ke?
mkanan dia xikut mcm syazana suruh ke?
hmmmm...
mcmna sy nk bgtaw syazana pun sy xtaw.
patutnya dr ptg td ag sy msg dia sbb terter dia berak ala2 cirit birit...
hmmm.. tp sy xmsg dia pulak..
then now... how???
say on ym td.. kot2 ada reen, mah ke...i need sumbody to story. tp ye la pagi2 buta. sape yg nk ada.
=(

i'm sory sya...
maybe dah dtakdirkan umo dia smpai cni sja.
she need partner i guess.
sedih dia xsempat jumpa bf dia yg sya plan nk beli.